hmmmm...

i hate the feeling before i see you.
i hate the need to prepare before i see you.
i hate the nights when i do not sleep well because of you.
i hate the days that i can’t enjoy because of you.
i hate feeling that i do not know enough.
i hate feeling of being incompetent.
BUT
that feeling
after seeing you..
it’s one of the BEST feelings in the world.

i am no longer anxious.
i no longer have to guess what you will be like.
i am no longer nervous.
i learn more about myself after seeing you.

after seeing you,
i am aware of what my weaknesses are
ALONG with my strengths

it’s as if weight is lifted off of my shoulders
and i can finally breathe and enjoy life again.

though it is sometimes a struggle,
i know that you make me better. :D

i love and hate exams
:P

[this post was inspired by the two exams i’ll be taking tmrw] woohoo